Ok I am dragging my feet on this one because for me this is a daunting year to write about, while still being sure that I am not being influenced by all the 2012 hype out there. But I will do my best.
This year begins with different energy than is usually felt right from the start for me. The year typically has a bit of an energetic pattern with ups and downs that flow with certain months. For example January tends to be a more solitary time, February more about reconnections, August and December have been big manifesting months. These are constants that I have noted that seem to have held true for years. Well prepare for the unexpected I guess. To start with when I tune into January I expected to feel that solitary energy. Its usually a message like ” hunker down, spend time recharging, focus on doing nothing” however this year the energy feels the opposite. The messages seems to be of continued activity. Like this month is about continuing to connect with people or reconnecting with those you may have lost touch with. Its a fast paced energy that is not typical for January but it feels good. It feels like the kind of month where you will find yourself balancing all of your social, personal and work demands and enjoying the activity. What a nice welcome change for January. So I am being urged to convey that we should not to shy away from the call of duty or the call to socialize but to embrace it and know that we will have the support of the Universe to give us the energy to accomplish and have fun this month.
Ok so after all that reconnecting and socializing it seems that this year February will be that reflection time. I feel things slowing way down. I definitely feel the cold settle in during this month. Somehow Mother Nature is going to have a strong influence in encouraging us to take the time to stay in for a bit this month. This is the time we need to begin conserving our personal energy in preparation for the blooming of spring. It seems really important to take the time during February to reflect on where we have been personally and as a society as a whole and then think about what it is we want to see happen in 2012. I know, shouldn’t we be doing this around New Years. Something tells me people just didn’t feel like doing it then or they were way too busy. The Universe is supporting that kind of inner reflection and personal goal setting in February. When the opportunities come for this kind of soul searching it is important to take them. If we chose not to then we indeed leave our fate to the wind. I myself would rather be a co-creator and at least have some outline of the direction I would like the areas of my life to head. Not that you want to sit down and have a detailed description of every aspect of your life and exactly everything that you want to happen in 2012, but to just think about things you want to enhance, things you want to change and perhaps rough ideas of how you would like those things to change, and also to think about the things you may have outgrown and spend time energetically releasing those things so that the intention is out there for events to happen to help you move on from them.
When I tune into March it feels sluggish. I see that sloppy snow, grey with large puddles. I feel like the air is cold and I actually feel that feeling of a spring time cold- feeling run down and stuffy with a headache. Something tells me this will not be an easy month. Its like the little things of daily life will just seem to wear on us this month. You know those times when you feel like you just want to run away to a tropical destination, alone where nobody knows you or wants anything from you, somewhere that you can just sit under a palm tree sipping a pina colada from a coconut shell with a little umbrella in it. That is the feeling of March- Calgon take me away! Its not like your world is going to fall apart this month but its just hectic and difficult to get anything productive done, and it just keeps piling up. This is one of those months where if you can not get away you should just keep repeating the mantra ”this too shall pass”. Despite the arduous nature of this month it does seem like it goes by fast. So if you are not able to escape, then keep your nose to the grindstone and know that it will be over soon.
Well we are still not out of the woods yet. I tend to see weather when I tune into months and April seem especially rainy. Very gray and drizzly. The damp chill in the air. April is typically rainy in Minnesota but it seems even more gray than usual. Generally I begin to feel the beginning of a blossoming of spirit, an awakening of people ready to get out and get active after our Minnesotan hybernation however, April is not going to do it this year. I feel like the traditional activities of spring cleaning, garage sale-ing, even getting a new spring look are best held off on. This is another one of those gifts in disguise from the Universe- a time to reflect and go inward. Maybe its time to finish up those few indoor things that you did not quite get to. Its like things are put on hold so that we can catch up. Make sure not to push forward with the usual activities before you have finished what needed to be done in the winter. There will be time for the spring activities, if you rush and do them now you will either be re doing them or they will not work out well. Its important to work with the energy of the Universe and to not try to overpower it or push past it due to tradition or sheer stubborness. I have learned you will always regret doing that.
Now things brighten up a bit. It feels like there are big changes this month. Everything is brighter weather wise. There is a lighter energy. The energy is supporting getting out and getting things ready for summer. It feels like many people may be going through personal transitions as well…maybe that is why Mother Nature was waiting for her transition from winter to spring, so that she too could support individuals with that tranformational energy. Although individual change is sometime scary the changes that happen this month are good, even the ones that do not seem like they are good. The month is like a door being opened and we are encouraged to embrace the changes that come to us, even if they are not what we thought we wanted. Something tells me this doorway leads to exactly what we are wanting in the big picture, we just might not be able to see that from our current vantage point. The key message of this month is to trust the Universe and to use the added energy to move forward in the direction we are being led. To not resist in thinking that we need to control everything, if your intention is out there trust that you are being led to where you wanted to go, even if it means going backwards or sideways. The Universe also will not do all the work to get you to where you want to be- it merely points you in the direction and opens doors, its up to you to walk forward and to maybe climb a hurdle or two.
I am not sure what to say about June. I have never really felt this before but when I tune into June its like a blip on a tv screen. Like a flash of light that flickers on and then quickly off, leaving just emptiness. The feeling that accompanies this image is like the whole month just goes by in record time. Its like I can not even see what will happen because truly none of it matters because the month is going to go so fast you would not remember or even notice if I told you some of the events. Due to this I would caution you to not make a large amount of plans for June. Something tells me we will be busy enough dealing with the fast pace of this month. Having things planned will just lead to not enjoying them fully or becoming stressed out due to the plans that we make.
There is an electricity to July this year. It seem positive. When I think about July this year I get that sensation of all the hairs on my arms standing up and the tingles up and down my spine. I am feeling like this is a big month to manifest things. To have all those thoughts from February and April come into being in the physical reality. I get this picture of being at this carnival on the forth of July that I used to sometimes go to as a kid. I have gone back as an adult and it just lost its magic. But this image I get is of how it was when I was a kid. There is a magic that is intangible that is in the air. Nothing amazing has to happen physically because the air just has this magical quality to it…when you feel it you know the memory will stay with you forever of this being one of those happy times in life. Those times that you just say ” yeah that was great” and when people ask you what was great about it you really can not explain it- “you had to be there”. Enjoy this time. Be present and be in the moment. Try to feel the energy of the things you do this month. Gatherings with friends or family, outings to special places, time in your yard or house, time alone. All of it has the potential to be magical this month. Make sure you are noticing how special this time is and do not let it pass you by as you are distracted by mundane day to day things. Take the time to smell the flowers and smile at what you have in your life.
August is another reflection time. We seem to be having more of those this year than usual. This one feels like a more sober reflection of what you noticed in July. Instead of the magic and awe of noticing the blessings in your life that July gave us, this month is more about quiet reflection of what is right in our lives. I see time spent alone on a walk or by a lake or river, maybe sitting by a tree or on a favorite chair. This is less social and more about reconnecting to the Universe itself. Taking the time to truly and almost methodically count all the blessings. Its important to do this from time to time inorder to realize all that we have been given and all that we have achieved. This is going to be hard for some of those Debbie Downer types but its especially important for them. After all not taking the time to do this is what made you a Debbie Downer to begin with. Let’s use the energy of this month to break that cycle and notice what is right so that we can use that silent powerful energy of good to help move us forward on our paths.
September feels very windy. That wind that blows your hair in circle so that it gets stuck in your eyes. The feeling that goes along with this is that these are the winds of change and they are a-blowin’ strong. Don’t bother holding on to your hat because that blew away before you could grab it. I feel like I am thinking ” so I just spent two months being grateful for everything I have so that now it all changes?”. Yep. The good news is that even though change is hard, especially when we are in a place where we kind of liked what we had going, in the end we generally say that the change was the best thing that could have happened. It’s not that we will see that or feel that this month. We will more likely be scrambling to clutch onto all the things we do not want blown away. But when the wind settles and we inventory what we have we will find that perhaps we have gained some wonderful things for all of the things that we lost. Do not expect to be doing that inventory this month just know that as you release this month, once thing settle down you will in a big picture sense be better off. Nothing can be taken from you that you were meant to have, if its gone its because it was not yours to keep. Easier said that felt or experienced.
There is a calm to October. Again that slow drizzle. I see the raindrops slide down the window. That always reminds me of tears on a person’s cheek. I used to watch the drops slide down the glass and merge together picking up speed and then suddenly stopping again, leaving that long streaked path behind them. Sometimes I would follow their path with my fingers, with my eyes half focused and hazy. The feeling when I have this memory is one of deep, deep reflection. Its like doing that deep inner grief work. Feeling those deep feelings of loss, of missing, of longing. This month seems to be a time to redefine what really matter and what is really important to us. We may have lost some things in September but what was really important? What do we have left? What have we gained? (think lessons and wisdomeas well as material things) It’s at times like this that I often feel I am on the verge of finding a deeper happiness- a contentment. It’s like things get rocked and jumbled around and then I can quietly realign myself with my own deeper truth. This month is about doing just that. Search within ourselves and figure out what matters for us and for humanity in general and decide what our role is in supporting those things that matter. This is a month to build our resolve and to commit to what we want to see in the world and in our lives. We commit because the work of obtaining that will not be easy and we know we have to be determined to go after it. Reflect, gather that inner strength and decide what you stand for and what is important to fight for.
This is when it gets interesting. I am not going to predict the end of the world, even the end of the world as we know it. Actually every minute of everyday is the end of the world as we know it. With each minute we have new experience and that experience shapes our perspective and the perspective of those around us… so the world is never that same as how we just experienced it, it is always completely new in many ways we just are not aware enough to see that. This is when the 2012 hype really picks up. Those people who are sensitive will feel this. There will be an undercurrent of heightened anxiety in an already anxious part of the year. It feels very uncomfortable. Here is what I am being asked to covey. We have the ability to lessen this anxiety in a few ways. 1) by not buying into it all and further magnifying it with all of our worries and talk and action around trying to stop whatever it is we think may happen 2) We can try to hold a space of calm, peace and self assuredness. I believe the Universal energy supports and sustains me. Whether I am in my bodily container or have moved on I remain and am a part of that larger consciousness (some call God, some call Spirit, some call Consciousness or the Universe, etc). Simply put even if everything else goes…what is true and real of us remains and is eternal. Hold those thoughts in a calm assured way and it will help you to deal with the crazy, panicked energy of those around you. It will also help create places of calm where those swept up in the current of hype can find refuge. November is when we really need to be mindful of the energy we are putting out into the collective. Science has shown that our energy indeed influences people and things around us. During this time, that awareness and mindful practice of putting out positive energy is very important. We create our reality- whether your believe that or not does not matter, in the end you have nothing to lose by holding positive space. Engaging in the hype and worry will most assuredly not lead to greater inner happiness.
December (da-da-dahhhh!- said kiddingly)
So here it is. Just to put this in perspective. Throughout history the end of the world has been predicted. The most notable recent one was 2000- when computers where not programmed to recognize the year and it was going to lead to mass power failure, planes dropping form the sky, the whole inrfastructure of humanity crumbling due to its automization. Well I remember where I was. Pregnant with my first born and at a friends gathering. Midnight hit and not a light flickered…the world continued as it always had. Even if it had ended back then there was nothing we could have done to stop it. I for one was where I wanted to be that night doing what I wanted to do…so if it ended I was ok with it. Maybe as a human race we need that threat of it all ending. Maybe that helps keep us doing what we want to do in our hearts and souls. We are told what we should do so often that we begin to believe it. Then when our lives are threatened, when we think it could all end, we search ourselves and begin to see what we really want to do instead. Take this year 2012 and see it as an opportunity to do that. It could all end in a million different scenarios that are being played over and over on every tv station, in every magazine. If it does will you know that you have lived your dream, done what you have wanted to do in your heart. That is what we are here for. To follow the Universe, to ride the waves that push us towards what we were truly meant to do. We have lost touch, many of us, with what we were meant to do. Maybe Dec 21st 2012 is a new beginning. Not one where solar flares take out satelites and bring down energy grids, but one where people faced with their immortality begin to truly live from there hearts. Think of how truly different our world would be if masses of people suddenly did that. It truly would be the end of the world as we know it and the dawn of a world the way God intended it to be.
Happy 2012- its sure to be an amazing year of learning and growth for us all.
With Love and Light