Topic: Facing our Fears
Wow! What a month. I read this monthly horoscope on line and I must admit when she (Susan Miller- excellent astrologer by the way) wrote about how chaotic things would be this month due to the cardinal cross that formed, I had no idea what we were really in for. Things have been turbulent as this cross worked its magic. Depending on your sign it was there to shake things up in different parts of our lives. For me I was told it would shake up relationships and boy what a ride it was. This combined with mercury going retrograde on the 20th, again shaking things up so that we can see what needs to be changed in our lives, made for a rough month indeed .
These two astrological events combined with the events of my own personal life have lead me to this months topic, facing our fears. When these shake ups occur they always cause us to stop and consider where we are going and where we have been. They cause us to rethink what needs to change in our lives. Are there things that need to be let go of, are there people we are clinging to that no longer fit us, are there patterns that are not working any more? etc. etc. All of these questions come to the surface during months such as this past August. In the middle of the chaos of August it was hard to see through all the dust that was getting kicked up. Now as August draws to a close and the dust begins to settle we have the ability to finally start to see more clearly. We can see the things that need to change so that perhaps next time a personal storm kicks up there is not so much debris to get tossed around and less mess to clean up when it ends.
I came across a passage in a book and knew that this message and these experiences were not just my own. This shake up and its call for us to face our fears and confront the things we have been unwilling to confront, the things we need to confront. It is a universal call reaching out to many people at this moment in time. The passage read ” Our fears arise from things we do not confront. Once we are willing to look fully and deeply at the source of fear, it loses its power.”
This quote speaks volumes to me personally. I had the experience all month of a close friend challenging me to confront a situation in my life- literally ALL month! (I am a bit slow to pick up on things) I argued and did not want to admit that the situation needed to be confronted. I was so entrenched in my own denial of the situation that I could not see it. We went round and round, my friend telling me something needed to change and me insisting that there was no problem and furthermore that it was HIS problem, NOT mine . Yet even while arguing, inside I kept trying to understand why he was saying it. Then suddenly today he stated it in a way that made sense and I saw what was in my blind spot. The blind spots are caused by fear. They are caused by not wanting to look at those parts of ourselves and our lives that we are afraid to change. It seems like the things that we need to change the most, the things that are causing us the most harm are the things that we can not seem to see within ourselves. My friend was pointing out that by not confronting this part of my life I was giving it power. Just like the quote states, and when I saw it, I saw the power I had given it. When I confronted it I believe I took a huge step in taking away its power in my life. Just recognizing the issue was a huge step in itself. My issue is a big issue, long standing throughout my entire life and so I know that I will have to continue to confront it and challenge this part of my life- but taking this first step is taking a stand against the power it has had over me.
I am not alone in this. My friends, family, clients, people I briefly meet- they all have these blind spots. These spots that are so easy for others to see in us but so impossibly hard to see in ourselves. People tell us they are there and we deny it. We think person after person is wrong- that “they just don’t understand” or “they don’t have the full story”, “if they knew what we knew of the history of the issue then they would understand”. The truth is that it is usually ourselves that are not seeing the whole truth. Our pride, our feelings that we know ourselves better than anyone, our feelings of wanting to be so evolved, or believing we are beyond the need of others help and input- all of these things stand in our way of hearing the messages the Universe sends us about the areas we need to address. We need to face these deep fears in order to have the power where it belongs- within us, in that place where the divine resides within ourselves.
The challenge this month as the dust of August settles is to really listen to the messages of those around you. Listen to what they are saying and dig deeper, ask questions and try to be open to fully understand what people are telling you about your fears, the things that are limiting you from being your true highest self. When you find yourself saying ” that person does not know what they are talking about”- stop yourself and try to dig deeper with that person to understand exactly what it is they are pointing out. Try to remove the blocks that keep you from hearing and use these messages to go deeper within yourself to explore and understand those things that you need to confront- both within yourself and in your environment. Then face those fears instead of stuffing them, running from them, or escaping from them through TV, drugs, or other distractions. This is no easy task, its a challenge you have to be willing to struggle and work through. I was not trying to be blind to my issue, I was trying to understand but it took work and a willingness to stick with it, to tell the Universe that I wanted to understand, to demand to understand inorder for me to finally see. No less will be required of any of you who choose to face the shadows within yourselves.
When we see the totality of who we are with our faults, flaws, and blind spots we also are allowed to fully experience the splendor of the divine beings we truely are. The work and effort are worth the rewards within ourselves. September looks to be a good month for facing the fears and shadows that August kicked up. I wish you all luck and courage.
With Love and Light